Not myself, feeling limited

John (@ganjasmoker110) 8 years, 9 months ago

I used to love smoking weed. If I had done something negative or involving a lot of ego, after I smoked I would become very aware of this and want to change for the better next time, basically have a mini insight session.
I got in trouble at school for marijuana and with the police a few weeks after. They put me on probation and told me I couldn’t smoke, it was very hard for me to stop and even failed a couple tests due to re use. Finally, after a few incidents with being thrown in juvi I finally quit. I even smoked spice sometimes because I missed weed so much. Finally, I got off probation after I turned 18 but was kicked out of the house and left to live with my sister in a different state. I knew that I had done some bad things in my past and it was a good opportunity to turn things around. Although ever since, I have had some sort of feeling of not being myself and feeling limited to the happiness in life I had before. Also I do not enjoy smoking weed nearly as much and everything is just “bland”

February 28, 2013 at 8:32 pm
dragonsong (2) (@dragonsong) 8 years, 9 months ago ago

Have you tried other alternatives to altering your consciousness and perspective without the usage of enthoegens? I use meditation, long walks, dance, song and fasting to help come to similar mind frames that cannabis would put me in. It’s not the exact same mind you, but you still do get that slight momentary separation from ego and the ability to observe your actions from a different perspective.

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