Why sometimes when people ask me a question, “why do you like golf?” (a hobby of mine, I’ve played my whole life) I’ll know the answer deep down. I know that I enjoy it and love the challenge of it, but there are also aspects I don’t enjoy and loath about it. I’ll say something that just scratches the surface like, “well I like it because I get to be outside, it’s relaxing and it’s competitive too.” But there is so much more to it, so many emotions, so many feelings: I must sort through all these emotions and feelings and organize them; it is almost not possible to just make sense of all of it if it’s all jumbled and piled up deep down in my brain, where I’ve never took the time to sort them and organize them so I can communicate it to someone in an organized, understandable fashion. When I go through the ‘mess’ it takes time and effort, because it is all disorganized, like a pile of clothes needed to be sorted and folded and put in the right drawers.
The subconscious mind seems to be able to sort through these feelings almost immediately, like a super computer or ‘zip drive.’ It just zips through all your experiences, all your past feelings and emotions, all your gained knowledge, almost in no time, and gives you your final ‘answer’: Yes I like golf.
But when you need to explain the “why” to another person, you must sort through all the piles and disorganized experiences and feelings, using your conscious mind (as this is the main part of the mind used to communicate now a days in social settings) and communicate to them with organized logical sentences that explains your experiences and feelings on the subject: I love the thrill of competition. That feeling when you’re standing over the ball and everything is silent, everything is still and all you see is that small innocent white ball. You focus and in that short 1-2 second swing, that is all you know, you are 100% committed to that moment of impact, sending that ball soaring hundreds of feet into the sky. Then everything is out of your control, and all you can do is observe what you have accomplished with muscle memory, rythm of body, finely tuned and calculated movements connecting with the club, then the ball.
The subconscious mind seems to stir around recent experiences, thoughts, feelings and ‘digest’ it over time, then pop up and ‘surface’ at the bottom of the conscious mind and enlighten it with conclusions and epiphany’s that it finds on its own. You can accept these ‘conclusions’ and explore them further, or you can just ignore the beautiful, mysterious gift and let it dissipate (what many modern day people do, ignore this incredible gift and communication of TRUE self). It is always working, never stopping to digest what you consciously feed it. So feed it good, constructive thoughts and insights!
@jpete011: The way you described this whole thing is nice. I sometimes have trouble answering “why” questions that have me in question, and the way you put it is so clear to me — I can relate to it easily. I have trouble sorting through the jumbled disorganization that is my feelings and thoughts; glad someone is able to help me describe it
I feel there is alot to be said about this. I like the thought that the subconscious is the rapid super computer, so maybe the consciousness is like a monitor that works to display what it finds.
I have been thinking of my mind as some complex force that I can barely understand.. Sometimes it feels like it gets tangled in knots when I sit around over analyzing.. Perhaps it’s more like opening too many windows on the monitor.
I always thought it was fun sorting through the piles of subconcious, to figure out why you enjoy things. Just last night I figured out why certain things turn me on (obviously went beyond the pure physical aspect, I was thinking about the no porn challenge.)
It’s a great game to play, the “why” game, as you dig deeper and deeper into your mind, sorting your thoughts on the way.