Only way to relax…

 CrissJoMi (@CrissJoMi) 6 years, 7 months ago

My name is Criss and after smoking weed for about 7 years, I’m finally thinking about stopping. Just recently I started noticing that I’m becoming extremely forgetful. It’s only simple things but nonetheless I’m forgetting things I might’ve just talked about a few minutes ago! It’s been happening a lot, I’m talkin’ weeks. I’m getting more and more dazed out each time I smoke, like I get tired, sloppy, slurring my words or just kind of down in my zone, and my reaction time is slowing down. I’m laughing at myself because I can’t believe smoking weed, finally after 7 years, is having this effect on me. I know it’s the weed, I mean what else could it be? I’ve been smoking for a good time but I always had 1 to 2 month breaks here and there to get better jobs and I could tell that each time I started smoking again my tolerance was extremely low. Each time it got lower and lower. That’s cause I smoke just good reggie. Hydro’s the shit in every direction but I don’t need it to get the high I want. I smoked heavy for about 5 years, blunts all day everyday. But I had a baby, got married and pretty much dove into life hard. I don’t regret it but I wasnt prepared for all the challenges that came with it. I got to the point that I would smoke everyday still but only about 2 to 3 hits a day just for plain relaxation and just stress relief from my job, from bills, and just all the hectic bullshit in life in general. And that’s still how I do it today, but like I said I’m looking to stop but please…keep reading. My wife doesn’t smoke but she’s noticing the same changes about me that I’m noticing. She used to be extremely cool with it and didn’t even care but now since she’s noticing these changes I guess she’s starting not to like it more and more as days go by. I’ve never not once smoked or did anything that had to do with weed around my daughter, but now that she’s so aware I feel bad that I’m high around her. My eyes, ugh, I hate how red they get, Rhoto, I think thats the way you spell it, doesn’t even work. It makes my breath stink and just makes me into something I shouldn’t be around my daughter and a person my wife didn’t fall in love with. But it never ever did this to me until now. And at the same time, getting a good paying job is hard sometimes. Anything could happen and what if I’m dirty at the time I really need to find a job? BUT, I do not want to stop because LITERALLY, I feel it’s the only way to relax me after a shitty day. I’m a musican and a gamer and it’s makes writing music and gaming so sweet. I just get inspired. My wife is awesome and I love her to death. She makes me happy, no doubt about it, but I still love smoking because it just makes me feel great when I feel crappy. There’s just so many pros and cons.. I know weed is just weed, some people are “addicted” or think they are and some aren’t but either way weed is plays a pretty big part in my life. And oh! I don’t know how I forgot to mention that when I stop smoking for whatever reason, in that little time I have trouble falling asleep and when I do sleep my dreams run crazy! I hardly have an appetite and I get stressed out easy and in life getting stressed out is not hard. At all. Everything Is just straight up easier and I handle things way better when I’m high. But at the same time there’s all those negative things. I’m not gonna lie, I love smoking weed, just love it and I feel like it’ll be really hard to stop for good but be a really great thing if I did. Overall it’s effecting my marrage and my personallity mentally and physically but I still just really enjoy it mostly when I’m doing personal hobbies or just doing nothing. I just need a good talkin to… Thanks for reading.

March 20, 2015 at 2:23 am
adrian (2) (@dartinair) 6 years, 7 months ago ago

If it’s a problem, stop. Reevaluate why you partake in the sacred bud. I have felt the same way, but through some insight I’ve found that bud is not the problem. We judge ourselves harshly when reflecting on our past, grow nostalgic when we reminisce, an immobilizing combination that over sedates us when we partake.

Get past what’s in your head.
You are loving weed more than yourself.

John (29) (@JDrifter) 6 years, 7 months ago ago

Okay, you should stop, cold turkey, for at least a year. I know exactly what you mean, it’s not necessarily “addicting”, it’s just so…good. Smoking a few hits a night just brings back that euphoria of childhood innocence, that feeling of going to sleep in a warm bed on the night before Christmas morning. That’s how good weed is. But, it will gently start to corrode your brain, not literally, but figuratively. I’m eighteen years old and I would normally smoke every night, some good kush or diesel, but I moved away from home and had to get a job, so I stopped. It was the worst. For the first week I had intense anxiety, heart palpitations, and I couldn’t sleep a fucking wink. I would take a thin needle and try to scrape the inside edges of my medicine bottle (where I keep my weed), and try smoking all the little bits I could find…I looked like junky it was hilarious. ANYWAY, it’s been about two and a half months since, and I generally feel great. I have a job so I’m always busy, and I’m able to take great pleasure in the smallest things. A hot cup of coffee, a bag of sour patch kids, a short walk through the woods, a good conversation with a friend or a family member. I’ll admit that I’m still dying to smoke, and I’ll still crave weed forever, but that craving is in the background where it can’t control me. So I resolved to wait until the summer, so once June comes I’m getting stoned every day, but when September comes again I’ll stop. ANYWAY, I think you’re a lucky fucker to have a wife and a child. I’m bad with women. If I had a girlfriend I wouldn’t even think about pot, let alone having a son or daughter. If you feel ashamed to be stoned around your family, I would just stop, and wait a year, it will be worth it. Get a job (I know it’s not easy), and start writing music while sober, it’ll take on a different style. You don’t want to eventually lose your wife, don’t jeopardize it. Just stop smoking, take life by the balls, and in the future when you notice how much happier you are, how much more energy you have, and how much more money you’re making (and saving because you’re not buying weed, which is expensive), Sit down and get stoned out of your gourd, because you know you earned it.

CrissJoMi (2) (@CrissJoMi) 6 years, 7 months ago ago

Cool man thanks a lot! I know what you mean about that childhood feeling, I feel that way when my wife and I sit down on a weekend night to watch a scary movie with the lights out, and the baby is down and I’m high as fuck haha it just makes little things like that awesome, more awesome than it is in general already! Yeah I might just stop for a good while, just to see what it feels like to be sober and clearheaded. When my family and I are set for good, if I still want to, I might take it up again slowly tho.

JustinDanger (41) (@JustinDanger) 6 years, 7 months ago ago

Weed is as if not more addictive than alcohol.
It’s just not HC (hipster correct) to say that.
You’re experiencing withdrawals.
It’s a long road ahead.

Megan (2) (@meganmonde) 6 years, 7 months ago ago

I’ve always had the opinion that if you feel like it’s going to be too hard to quit something or that you “need” or want it to do certain things, you’re using it as a crutch. You don’t need a crutch. You are awesome, and you can inspire yourself without weed. Do you think that inspiration is coming directly from THC? No, it’s coming from you. From your mind. Your creativity and zen is going to be there regardless. So quit.

Anonymous (0) (@) 6 years, 7 months ago ago

It’s going to be really hard but honestly if you really want it you can do it. It was so hard for me and I had times I almost gave in. Because I thought when life got hard that smoking was all that would make me feel better. But if you really want to stop you will, you know your mind and body. Remember you can only make this decision for yourself. My parents always gave me crap for it and it was the most irritating thing. But one day I just did it and I feel amazing. :) I hope you find it in yourself to stop and not have to rely on it. Stay strong friend. :)

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