Pieces to the puzzle

Ariane (@antsjag) 8 years, 9 months ago


A u-turn has occurred this year on my road to recovery. I knew I was hitting a dark hole at the start of 2013. I was falling down the well, loosing my sights on the sun. The darkness had arrived at my door. I knew I needed help when I practically hit bottom and could not find the shine of the light.

My nails were bleeding and full of dirt while I tried to climb up my well. I could not do it alone anymore. I needed professional help so, I entered through the revolving door again for treatment. My independence was taken away, but I was learning new healthy ways to cope. Tears were filling my eyes as I attempted to excel forward with treatment. I was scared, afraid, and felt alone at times, but I knew that it was the necessary steps I needed to take. I leaned on my friends and family, supports, and my new treatment team.

One of my next steps, was to take part in a women’s group partial program. It was there that I built more skills. I started to redevelop structure to my day in the outside world. It sure was not easy to talk about feelings and past memories, but I knew I needed to face some of it. My pieces to my puzzle were starting to fit together.

I received complete care at the partial program, receiving ample time to build on skills. Part of my next steps forward, I found a wonderful new clinician and nutritionist to complete my team. My insurance even agreed to a single-case agreement to see my psychiatrist out-patient more frequently. I started going to Smart Recovery groups to sharpen my toolbox. My PCP visits have increased to every two to three weeks. I can now say my puzzle is a masterpiece with light gleaming on it.


“With one step forward, I shall ascend to the stars”

March 1, 2013 at 6:15 am
max (18) (@tothemax92) 8 years, 9 months ago ago

stay strong it only gets better, im in my fourth month of cleanliness, i went thru a couple years where i beleived grugs were my connection to god, looking at life without the fuzz of chemicals felt like hell to me, and it got to the point where i was just waiting for the drugs to finally take me away to the next dimension. I came close and finally saw that i was effecting every one around me with my recklessness, and it was my current life mission to get off everything and start sharing life and day to day experience with my loved ones. It gets a lot easier once your bodies natural high gets a chance to peak :)

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