heavy on my mind
heavy on my heart
so many words
I don’t know where to start
she is the incarnation of evil in heals
she thinks she has you around her finger, that’s how she gets her feels
with one step forward and minimum five steps back
walking on eggshells: always under attack
she’s unhinged my mind with a wicked smile in her heart
why couldn’t I see this from the start?
why did it take me so much time to see
that this girl was abusing me.
in a lash of self defense I fleed
however she kept me on a very short leash
like twine on a heart shaped balloon
when ever I stray too far
she reals me back
bring me down to her level of misery
I don’t hate her
nor do I wish her the best
sometimes I wonder if this is all a test
maybe i like the abuse
maybe its not something you choose
perhaps im the one addicted to pain
perhaps im the one that’s insane.
Beautifully written. So heartfelt. I get it. I’ve come to understand that there is a type of love that can be an addiction. I’ve been sober from her for 8 months, but still every day I wake up feeling that intense craving. The reality is we are all insane, but you are not alone. Hang in there. Peace.