Ive been smoking daily, not much usually 1 joint every afternoon to relax for the rest of the day but for a while now I have been getting a bit more than I expect, I started questioning the universe and its sheer size, where everything or anything initially came from as the big bang theory doesnt seem logical to me, I had a need for knowledge I would end up spending alot of my time watching documentrys and reading about the pyramids and other mysteries of the world, wanting to know about dreams and why we have them, all sorts of things i was obsessed with knowledge. My Highs started to turn almost scary, I would look at everything from a different perspective, Music sounding very intense, everything has started to look fake, conversations about normal chitchat were extremly confusing as it all seemed pointless. I had the idea that existence cant be possible and that everything was some how a dream and I felt like everything was all one big dream happening at once, i was everything and everybody because its all part of my dream and nothing exists, and its not a good feeling when you genuinely believe you dont exist. I also saw something a couple of times, I cant really explain it but it was like pure creation in my head, it made so much sense at the time, I felt like what i saw was the beginning and the end of life and existence itself, just raw creation and i was one with it, everything that exists was contained in a box with nothing outside of it, and i was it.
This probably doesnt make much sense to most people lol but has anybody experienced anything similar? What I have written is still not half of it, just me trying to remember it all. If I got high im sure it will all come back to me.
