Self induced anxiety while practicing awareness… Help!

Kyle (@smileforkyle) 9 years, 2 months ago

I have recently been experimenting with new ways of experiencing reality such as viewing all experiences as challenges and responding with positive emotions to things that would normally upset me. Additionally I have really been focusing on trying to to be self aware of how I think and how I feel in the moment. This is where I unexpectedly started to get an anxious burn in my chest when I am trying to be at peace and in moment. The more I try to be in the moment and content, the worse the pain thickens and forces me to feel weak and a tight chest. My heart rate doesn’t increase and I don’t sweat, I just have a very uncomfortable pain that seems to last as I try to focus on nothing. The pain stops as I get my brain active on something like work or excercise. I really dont understand why my mind will not let me be in peace and enjoy the moment. I have never had this problem until I really started observing my thoughts and body sensations. Please help me understand! It’s really been affecting my spiritual growth the past week!

March 4, 2013 at 5:58 pm
Eric (1,819)M (@blankey) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@smileforkyle, Your mind will never allow you to be in the moment and thus at peace. The mind deals in time, past and future, which is, obviously, not the present. Also, do not try and control feelings, let them flow, see them, observe them, feel them, but do not think about them, do not hold any judgements, that is the ego.

Take deep breaths and focus on the feelings it gives. Feel your chest and stomach expand with each inhale and shrink with each exhale. Do not think about it. Feel it.

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MarkII (71) (@mwinship13) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

I’ve been altering my reality tunnel and often feel anxiety because of it. I start questioning the world, myself, and have a hard time understanding anything during the anxiety.

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experience (70) (@learn) 9 years, 2 months ago ago
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MattSeven (15) (@mattseven) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

Mindfulness is often contraindicated for people with anxiety issues. Learning to redirect the mind away, or channel it productively, is often the way to go.

Without knowing more, the general concern is that there are some issues you need to resolve. It can be hard encouraging people to explore this because we grow accustomed to things and neglect the impact they are having on us. You may have invited your brain to express itself and found it doesn’t like something about your life/thinking.

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Matt (16) (@irvzilla) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

You can be in the present, thats the entire point of being mindful and trying to experience things in a different light. I often have anxiety like this also. Oddly enough, what helps me is trying to view myself and what I’m doing at that exact moment from almost a birds eye view. If you can imagine what you look like in that exact moment from a third person perspective almost like a video game it tends to help me because I realize i’m just like every else and theres no reason to worry. Whether it comes from being a tad self conscious or just worrying for no specific reason, just know that what your doing probably isnt that special or out of the norm. Youve done it all before thousands of times while kind of being in auto pilot, now your just gonna do it while being mindful. Same thing as before and its always gonna be the same because your gonna live and youll find yourself back in the same position in the future. Just be confident and try not to think too much.

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Ellie (1,363)M (@tangledupinplaid21) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@smileforkyle, The only way out is through!

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josephm (772) (@josephm) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@smileforkyle, the negative forces influencing you is always there ( if you have thought of it before at some point ) Repeat Exactly What You Want Over and Over within a rhythm. im going to die??? No Im not going to die, im a healthy regenerative human being. ~rinse repeat~

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Kyle (9) (@smileforkyle) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

Thanks for all the responses! The YouTube video by Alan Watts helped me realize I was thinking about trying to be present rather than actually just being present. I am still having problems eliminate the anxiety tho. It seems as soon as I wake up it tries to haunt me that I cant enjoy life without a pain in my chest or a feeling that will make me uncomfortable. I had a few chances today where I felt really good abut life and instantly the thought comes up that I can’t fully enjoy what I am doing because of this pain that will and does emerge. I need a mental restart to get this fake pain from haunting me it seems like. Any more advice you guys have that will help me? I feel like the more recognition I give this fake pain the more it wants to come back but at the same time if I ignore it it strengthens it!

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Kyle (9) (@smileforkyle) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@irvzilla, I ironically imagine that third person perspective to. The problem is I imagine the third person as having a pain in the chest. I know the pain is not really there but the more I try to isolate myself from it the stronger it hurts.

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Kyle (9) (@smileforkyle) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@josephm, I have done that the past few days and the more I tell myself I am healthy the more it reminds my annoying pain to come back.

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Matt (16) (@irvzilla) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

the pain could be a result of the anxiety itself. I had chest pains related to my anxiety. And my anxiety was directly related to alcohol consumption in college. I stopped drinking so much, anxiety went away, and with it the chest pain. do you drink? Youd be surprised the effect alcohol has on anxiety. And if not, try to rid yourself of other causes of anxiety.

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nikkihaze (33) (@nikkihaze) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@smileforkyle, Before you can remain in the present, you have to resolve the past. I suggest you think in depth about your entire life, starting with the earliest memories you can remember and try to find any patterns. Our lives try to teach us lessons through obstacles and these obstacles continue to show up in our lives until we have learned the lessons. It sound like you might have some issue related to control. Just take several days/weeks/months to do some deep introspection and allow any issues in your life to surface, then work to resolve them. Once they are resolved, your ability to stay in the present should be much easier.

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Kyle (9) (@smileforkyle) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@irvzilla, You may have hit it right on the spot! Recently I have had some binge drinking weekends. Really healthy all week then drinking way too much one night a weekend and blacking out. I didn’t think to relate the two because I was thinking me trying to be in the present was causing the anxiety. I will tone down my partying this weekend and see what happens. Thanks for the advice!

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Ali (0) (@zoure) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

I recommend listen to calming music, while focusing ONLY on your breathing, and the deep sensations of breathing.

Try to let those thoughts pass, as blocking them out tends to fail.
At least for me.

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Matt (16) (@irvzilla) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

I never had an ounce of anxiety my entire life until a month and 3 months ago. I was driving home from college after finals week and was living off adderal while i was studying and four look / alcohol inbetween finals to celebrate. Needless to say i thought i was superman and itd never effect me. I caught myself walking into the ER that day cause i convinced myself i was having a heart attack and this was it . Ever since when i get hammered the next day involves alot of water and alot of anxiety. This is why i cut down alcohol a ton, the anxiety was simply not worth it. All i can see is alcohol has a profound effect on anxiety, almost 100% of mine, and youd be surprised how much chugging a quick water bottle or two will do to help anxiety. Alot of alcohol related anxiety is due to dehydration.

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Matt (16) (@irvzilla) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

four loko *

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josephm (772) (@josephm) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@smileforkyle, comes back? say it again. force it.

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PeaceRiot (178) (@peaceriot) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@smileforkyle, How long have you been practicing this way of thinking?

I’ve been doing it for about half a year and it’s been working great for me.

I think my power tool that makes this work for me is meditation though. How deep have you been getting into meditation with this way of thinking?

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Anonymous (25) (@) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

Buddhist says just observe your experience, don,t give an evaluation of them being positive or negative..

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Anonymous (145) (@) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

@smileforkyle, you need to be careful or you might cause a rip in the space time continuum, you don`t want to be remembered as they guy who murdered all life on earth by using awareness irresponsibly now do you?

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kristikat (2) (@kristikat) 9 years, 2 months ago ago

lol if you were self-aware you wouldn’t be overwhelmed by an anxiety attack,
since you will realize that everyone around you is just like you,
lost, confused and fucked up,
no need to feel more worthless than anyone else.

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