I had a major epiphany the other day. I was in a rather deep discussion with someone, when I looked over and my cat’s food dish was empty. Without saying anything, and in the middle of this other person’s sentence, I turned around, left the room, went and got cat food, and came back.
I looked at them, and they looked (angrily) at me. Then it hit me. Holy shit. Ho-lee-shit.
I have done this my whole life. I forget to open doors for people, I forget to say Hi to people, I forget to be polite to people, I forget to engage in conversation with people, I can’t read 10 paragraphs in a row without stopping if my life depended on it, anything that deals with more than 7 steps, I will get distracted (and fuck it up), I’ve totally forgotten I was giving a discussion to a group of people – in the middle of the discussion – and have to retrace my thoughts, I’ve driven past my house multiple times, it goes on.
I don’t believe that people have this ‘disease’ of ADD. I think ADD just means you kind of have monkey brain, and never ‘taught’ yourself to really concentrate on one task.
All through elementary, middle, high, and college schooling, would I find my notes more drawings, sketches, and random ideas, than notes for my classes. Never once was a single page to be left without something from an idea completely distant from the subject to be learned.
This is such an epiphany, its like, everything I’ve found so separate and confusing, has just piled itself together and gotten wrapped up in a nice bow.
The whole world has ADD. If you live in the modern fast paced world surrounded by technology, you are bound to have “ADD”. Did it make you happier to label your condition though?
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It didn’t really make me happier but it ‘clicked’. It was like a weight off my shoulders – everything that seemed unconnected and seemed to hold me back, was now part of the same issue – my inability to concentrate on mundane, repetitive tasks.
The whole world DOES have ADD. It’s just some of us unlearn it, and some of us don’t. I don’t think ADD is some DISORDER that people GET or DEVELOP. Its something we’re all inherently born with, thats how the brain WORKS, and then we UNLEARN IT, by standing in line, looking at the board, don’t draw in class, don’t talk in class, CONCENTRATE. PAY ATTENTION. Etc.