I’m 13 years old. I’ve always considered myself ‘different’; but in a good way. I was born a lefty, mildly autistic and got access to the Internet since I was 6. I also started to like classical music when I was 8. I always stayed up late, like really late browsing the Internet. The thing is, learning makes my brain feel good, sort of like an orgasm. So, instead of playing World of Warcraft like the stereotype, I usually go on sites like HighExistence, WaitButWhy, 4chan (/x/, /sci/, /lit/ etc.) to seek for knowledge. I’ve had many existential crises from reading Existentialism, Presentism and other philosophical idea such as Solipsism. Other than philosophy, I always do research about stuff that I’m interested in.
Suddenly one day I woke up and I felt that I’m not capable of thinking deeply anymore. I suddenly got ‘bored’ with knowledge somehow. My life became a routine. How come?
Maybe you will now enjoying feeeling deeply instead of thinking :D
Totally normal. The secret of creation is in the wave, so expect the “highs” to be followed by “lows”. The secret is to stay present and take every moment just as richly as the years spent gaining knowledge. When its time for you to move on to the next phase, your current one will begin to lose flavor like a stick of gum. Dont have sentiment for the old and dont expect from the new, just absorb and do what feels right. :)
Your experiences are way behind your knowledge. Knowledge is a “theory” of experience. Experience is weeding out the knowledge that doesn’t work, and emphasizing what works.
I may add the fact that you have a lot of knowledge but all this knowledge is theoretical and not practical. You are 13 years old and the fact that you have managed to not follow the ‘systematical road’ of a teenager life gives you the chance to broaden your mind very early. I would strongly advise you right now to sart living, go out there and do things, don
t read about people doing other things. I had this problem for a while where I would research many things and mostly about spiritual and mental informations, but then my dad made me realize that I would never understand those beliefs and feelings if I dont go out there and actually live them. I hope this may help you later on in your life. Peace…one love.
It’s entirely possible that you’re just not well rounded. I’m not either, but I’m working on it. I’d much rather spend all of my time learning, reading books, absorbing knowledge. But you can’t let yourself do that. We can’t just consume without ever creating.
I really enjoy knowledge, too. I’ll easily spend an entire day just researching and taking notes on one bizarre subject (recently it’s been Narcissus and Narcissistic Personality Disorder). And I still let myself do that. Once or twice a week.
A good thing to do would be to find at least 3 hobbies. One should be a hobby for mental enrichment (reading articles on the internet is mine) another should be a form of exercise (I’m really into yoga and roller skating) and the last should be a way to create (I draw faces using the golden ratio and paint plant/people hybrids). Switch out between which category of hobby you’re doing and It’s then a simple set up if you live for routines like I do.
Most importantly though, don’t feel despaired if you don’t want to seek out knowledge as actively anymore. Change is just change, it’s neither good or bad. Maybe it’s time you go out and feel deeply, like someone else on this thread mentioned. That’s actually some advice I’m going to take for my own use (:
It’s been said by @motorik @jakomross and @teaflower. You have accumulated an incredible amount of knowledge for your age, and that doesn’t have to be a bad thing. In fact, it should be a good thing. The only problem is that you seem to be lacking a great deal in your own experience. Don’t forget that you can only receive vicarious knowledge from reading. It is knowledge that someone else has derived from their own experiences. And it is wonderful share these ideas and to document them, but it is unhealthy to only consume knowledge from other people. As you said, you’re getting “bored” with knowledge. You are only getting bored with the knowledge of other people. It’s simply not as potent and meaningful as the knowledge you gain from your own direct experience. You need to begin developing your own ideas and concepts derived directly from your experiences. I encourage you to start writing about some ideas you have. Make your own piece of philosophy. A perfect place to begin would be to write about your experience with becoming ‘bored’ with knowledge, that’s an incredibly interesting thing that YOU have experienced. Write about it and think about how it has changed who you are.
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