The human condition is a painful struggle, especially to those who seek understanding. What could be a smörgåsbord of cool experiences and events… often feels more like one long endurance test to most of us.The world is complex and confusing in its own right. On top of this we’re given enough intelligence and information to see that there is something beyond it, enough perception to make us crave more knowledge, but nowhere near enough to satisfy that craving.So we’re stuck desperately looking for a purpose or meaning, but that seems the most remote from our understanding. The world often appears like a deserted project. Like it had a purpose at one point, but it was mostly forgotten. The project, however, was not abandoned. It just kept on running and evolving in its unfinished state, for the sheer fuck of it.The harrowing implications of our reality is that there simply is no “All powerful director” or “Divine conspiracy” behind
it all. In reality the whole world is so compartmentalized,
everyone just does their little part never knowing what the end result
is to be anyway. Sometimes things can just start as an idea somewhere
without directed control the wheels can be put in motion and the result
is made real. Or even the original idea itself, by the time it’s finished it’s
reworked and reconfigured until it’s something completely new without
anyone knowing how or why or for what purpose, yet there it is.Everything is kept together so that no component can stray too far, but
kept apart so that the left hand does not know what the right hand is
doing. We’re trapped in a limbo between harmony and freedom, without the
order and peace that comes from functional oneness and without the
freedom and integrity of true separation and autonomy.The brain never reveals itself, if there even is one. It seems to hint at its existence, but we can’t even tell whether those signals really come from a center of power or whether they’re just rumours from outside.
We, as in the human collective, are a
product of our society, we function collectively & individually by
of the System. Yet, the system is nothing more than a collaborative concept which is created and sustained completely by us & our belief
in the system itself.” In other words, we are products of society, which is created by us. So… we create society, which creates us. We’re indirectly redefining ourselves and each other, through an invisible, unreliable and fictitious middle man.We are our own prisoners, our own captors. Trapped in something we created to liberate and protect ourselves from ourselves. Our will to understand keeps us from understanding, and our desire to just be creates more complex needs. In trying to reach out and be more connected, we become more full of ego, dragging us down together.
It’s hopeless. So with the power of the mind we create a “Creator”, but why? To take away our sense of useless power? To compare ourselves to this ideal? Or simply to eventually destroy Him?Mankind…. these strange creatures, in this strange world, with one eye on the window looking out. Or looking in? Wondering how to get through that window, and why.Why is everything such a mystery?
What could be a delicious smörgåsbord of cool events often appears to be more like a long endurance test of surströmming…
What if the world is actually not complex and confusing and we just make it that way? This is something I wonder about. Maybe the problem isn’t, as you mention above, a lack of knowledge, but an excess of it.
I was reading about depression today and saw that one documented trigger of this disorder is too many options. People who, for example, went to a grocery store and picked out the first or second product they saw that fit their needs, were a lot less depressed than people who sat and ruminated over the decision, wondering which was the right choice, and doubting their decision once they made it. This obviously applies to deeper and more important things than grocery shopping, too.
Perhaps getting rid of this angst is just a matter of being more decisive, picking a path and sticking to it, while knowing you can adjust accordingly down the road. The biggest problem I have with trying to figure these things out is being frozen by an overabundance of possibilities, options, thoughts, ideas, distractions, confusing mysteries of life, etc (there are really endless things that can spur a thought loop like that).
I notice that when I just focus on one thing, or even an idea or state of mind, a lot of that fades away, and it’s easier to flow with life. Being in that “flow” state of life is ideal for creativity and functioning at optimal capacity. It isn’t possible ALL the time, but I think it’s important to pay attention to what spurs those states.
Life is fucking mysterious and confusing, and it gets me down a lot of the time (as you’ve likely noticed) but it could just be trying to take on too much at once. This is especially relevant in the information-internet-overload modern day we inhabit. Compare it to people living in cities vs. more rural dwellers. City life is so much more overwhelming. It gets to the point where you have to turn off certain observational skills and emotions just to walk down the street and buy a bagel without losing your damn mind.
I think that’s what a lot of people do now. We are overwhelmed by ideas and distractions and opinions and entertainment (and at times, philosophical ponderings that may have no answer) and it’s just not sustainable. Perhaps simplifying is key.
Why do people overthink things in the first place though? Because in the past they have made rushed decisions and faced undesirable consequences. We create the overthinking function to protect against bad decisions and it ends up haunting us as bad as those decisions. This raises a felt need to become more decisive which, if realized, eventually leads to suffering very avoidable consequences. We’re doomed either way.
And when it comes to real things in life, decisions rarely allow adjustments further down the road. Or at the very least they severely limit your future options to the point where the lack of options becomes depressing.
Those who believe so firmly and fondly in “our lord and saviour” so often find themselves feeling forsaken and as though they’re constantly being tested. While others reach out to the big man on their death bed, many believers wind up cutting him out right then and there.
We created the internet to make life easier, and in many ways it makes simple things very difficult. Just like cities are meant to increase quality of life, but usually suck the life out of people.
We look for life everywhere, and find it nowhere.
Mankind’s hunt for a high existence is similar to Wile E Coyotes hunt for the Roadrunner. Every tool backfires.
Some people overthink things who have barely experienced anything, as a protective measure over feared circumstances or feared results of wrong choices. That’s the essence of anxiety, which many people have who aren’t even old enough to have experienced much. Not experiencing much is often the direct result of fear of doing the wrong thing. I know this from personal experience and observing many others. How many people say “I would have liked to have done this with my life, but X and Y stopped me.”?
Whether being decisive leads to “suffering” consequences all depends on your perspective of suffering, and the decisions at hand. Some (resourceful, adaptable, intelligent) people would see mistakes as learning, and the pain as worth it since the experiences can be used to get to a better place. The pain that comes from screwing up is necessary, and can fuel all sorts of healthy growth if approached in the right way.
What is the point of being decisive and possibly fucking up or remaining stagnant as a result of never making decisions if none of it leads you to a higher place of understanding and quality of life? Isn’t that the ultimate goal?
I think any path can lead you there if you are just determined and won’t accept anything else. Even if that’s not the case, the only way it’s possible is by trying. That is my belief and approach, anyway.
I look for life everywhere, and often find it. If people don’t find it maybe they are not looking in the right way or the right places.