The life of a lonely soul.

 zefpepaj (@zefpepaj)4 years, 5 months ago

As my life has passed me by, friends have come and gone. Some have left my life of their own will, many others had no choice. As time has passed me by, I have been happy with living, with my only ambition in life is to be content. I have smoked marijuana since the age of 13, I am now 24. I have been alone most of my life and grew up with just a mother and 2 sisters. I am now on my own, and have been for a while. Looking back at my friends, they all have these nice cars, houses, jobs, and many other things people would like to have for themselves.

My question is “Is something wrong with me for not wishing to have all of these materialistic things? For just being content with what I have”? All of my friends and family have told me I threw my life away, meanwhile all I was trying to do was live a life that I love. Marijuana has been there for me through thick and thin, and I have only smoked 2-3 times a week ever since I was young. Is it possible I am addicted to marijuana and I am blinded by its effects?

February 4, 2016 at 7:00 pm
Shaman Naman (18) (@EpiQC) 4 years, 5 months ago ago

People (well, mostly everything) always come and go. I find it awesome that you’ve always pursued your personal goal of happiness, and I’d say that happiness depends on your mindset more than anything external, including materialistic stuff, relationships, traveling and whatnot. You can be happy with a nice car, a big house and a beautiful girlfriend, but you don’t need those as you can (must, perhaps) also find peace and contentment within yourself. Your friends have pursued goals imposed by culture, while you’re living an authentic life. Maybe they even envy you for not needing those things to be content. There’s nothing intrinsically wrong with materialism, as pretty much everything is relative, but it’s also not necessary. And no, I don’t think cannabis is a problem for you. For me, it can be a problem in social situations with lots of strangers, as I become a bit anxious and/or paranoid, but I always enjoy a good joint with my girlfriend, brother/mother or other friends. So if you’re happy with it, all the power to you!

Emma (193) (@emmaclaire) 4 years, 5 months ago ago

If you’re truly content with what you have then no, nothing is wrong with you.

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Emma (193) (@emmaclaire) 4 years, 5 months ago ago

Just realized that the quote I tried to share with you copied all wrong! It’s from this:

Mris85 (7) (@mris85) 4 years, 5 months ago ago

As long as you’re happy then that’s all that matters. Personally I love weed. Yes it had some ill effects, but I believe the good outweighs the bad. Just my opinion. I suppose the question you have to ask yourself is are you lonely? Do you feel like your missing something from your life? I want to meet someone someday who complements me, but I won’t settle simply because I’m lonely or want to be in a relationship. If you’re content, don’t worry about what other people say. If you feel like weed is affecting your life, take a t-break. Go a week without it and reevaluate. I do it every so often.

Squazo (3) (@mygrayzj) 4 years, 5 months ago ago

You’ve got a couple years on me, I’m 20 but I have felt similar feelings. I started smoking pot 2 years ago. I’ve never been a social person, I have one or two close friends and I do not really have a problem with it. Sometimes it gets a little lonely, but I feel that smoking allows me to be far more accepting of the loneliness, plus I am used to it.. I actually prefer to be alone when I am high, which leads to me not going anywhere or meeting anybody most of the time.

But on the other hand I do not know if I want to meet people because inside of me I do not feel that having more friends or going out would make me happier with life. I am super introverted by nature (or social conditioning…), and weed makes that introversion take effect in other spheres of my life. The social interaction I get between work and school is enough for me, and everything else I do alone just increases my happiness (I like to hike for example). As far as I am concerned, if what you’re doing is working for you, keep doing it. Why reinvent the wheel.. Materialism sucks anyway.

Mike Wuest (510) (@mikeyw829) 4 years, 5 months ago ago

I’m kind of like this and I don’t smoke.  I think it’s just when the cultural agenda no longer controls you, you don’t know what to do and can’t relate to most people.  I care more about following my inspiration and enjoying life than I do about acquiring possessions and looking a certain way to people.

Nothing’s wrong with you, and things will work out.  Stay true to your path and don’t let an insane world convince you that you are crazy.    

Living life as a means to an end is throwing it away, and that’s probably what most of the people who accuse you of throwing your life away are doing. You actually seem like you appreciate your life, rather than just living for the future and working your ass off at a job you hate everyday so you can have lots of money to buy stuff.  

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