Do you ever feel like something is missing in your life? No, not the “im sad, im feeling depressed” feeling either. Im talking about the missing piece. Im talking about the Variable X.
When I was a kid, I knew that my life goal was to become succesful. But I didnt know what that really meant at all. I was taught that one day, my life will need to be successful. I was raised that way, not only but my parents, but by school, by books, by TV, by everything. And what does success really mean? It means a whole lot of things, but to society, it =money
the corruptable mind of a child + working hard to become successful = X
Go to any college around the country and you might read a sign along the lines of “Welcome to ___ college. We our build futures.” Why is it that I never see signs in highschools that say “Welcome to ___ Highschool. We will try and find you a career you enjoy, instead of wasting your time with useless shit you will never use.” How many of us really knew what we wanted to be after high school? Not a lot im guessing. And how long were we given a chance to decided our career, our future, before we had to decide on a college? 3 months? Thank you high school, for nothing. And hello College, I dont know much about Business management at all(because my high school never cared to teach me much about business) but I guess ill devote 4 years of my life and $90,000. When I was a kid, I thought after college, your profesor would walk you over to a place of employment and help you start your career. “you have completed your college degree! Now as we promised, we will help you find a job and career that you will love!!” Haha, children can be so stupid.
5 years at high school + 4(or more) years at college = A career… er, nevermind:
5 wasted years at high school + 4(or more) years at college = X(AKA go find your own damn job)
Ahhh, love. We learn about it early dont we? I remember watching Disney cartoons where the prince finds his princess, they get married and live happily ever after. “You will find her easily, and she will complete you.”
Man + Women = Happy life
Beautiful isnt it? Too bad it couldnt be furthur from the truth. You will look, and you will find many women(men, if your a girl. Or whatever floats your boat, really). Many will reject you. A few will accept you. Once they accept you, many will make your life worse foryou for no reason. They may cheat on you, they may yell at you, they may try and change everything about you. Enjoy the infatuation phase, because theres a damn good chance that once its over, you two are over. The current divorce rate in America is around 48%. one out of every two marriages fail. What is wrong with us? No seriously, whatthe FUCK is wrong with us? Love is the purest, greatest thing in the world, yet we abuse it, take it for advantage, and desert it when it treats us poorly. You treat your spouse like shit? Guess what, your kids are watching. What morals do you think they are growing up with? WILL SOMEONE PLEASE THINK OF THE CHILDREN?!
Man + Woman = X(but most of you wont find X. And if you do find X, your probably going to lose X. If you are one of the lucky ones who think they have X, by golly hold on to it as tight as you can, you lucky SOB)
14 billion years ago, the universe was created. 15-30 years ago, you were created. But you really werent created then; your creation has been taking place for 14 billion years. Everything that has happened needed to happen for your creation, EXACTLY the way it happened. Or you wont be here. Sounds awesome right? Makes you feel special? Like your meant for something…great? Well than explain to me, sir, why the asshole down the street from me is alive? Why are their murderers, rapists, pedo’s, and mother fucking every kind of dirty scumbag in the world alive? There creation took 14 billion years too. They are just as special as you. There are more people out there doing bad than good right now. The largest majority of people are neutral; not doing anything at all. It took 14 billion years to create us, and this is what we are:
Assholes + genuinely good people + people living neutral lives = X
Do you have goals? I have goals. Have you ever reached a goal? What happens? You feel great; you achieved what you set out to achieve. And than what? You create another goal. and so on, and so fourth. There is no status quo; there is no end game. Humans must evolve. There must ALWAYS be a next goal. So go out there, and achieve your goal. But beware, dont celebrate your achieving too much: People might think your gloating. And dont under-celebrate it either: people might think you dontgiveashit. Celebrate it just right, and for the exact right amount of time. And then, move the fuck on…thats what society tells you, anyway. Why? Why must we live like this? What happens when you have achieved everything you want in life? What if, we as a human race, achieve everything? What if we reach a point in our history where we have created everything, thought of every idea, and had every conversation? Is that possible? NO its not! havent you been listening? There is no end game. We must evolve; thats what we do.
I often look at animals, and wonder how they live such happy lives, when most of them dont have any goals at all. Eat, fuck, sleep and survive…those 4 goals drive 99.99% of the species on earth.
X(the begining of it all) + X(our existence now) = X(our future) Pretty shitty formula for this one, huh?
I bet your sitting there looking for some sort of conclusion to this, arent you? “wheres the connections?” “What does it all mean?” “Where are we going? Where are we from?”
Well Ill give you a conclusion, and I bet your going to love it:
I got stoned + I wrote this =
I totally got it maybe there is some residue buzz left in me from last nights brownie.
2 of the hardest trues for me to accept we humans are not the end all and actually pretty fuck up species as a whole in realtionship to the earth and universe.
As individuals were not all that important in the grand scheme and very replaceable.
Yes find away to make some money to live , but enjoy your life ,no body else is going to do it for you . Point in fact jet down in the ocean few 100’s humans gone ,mud slide a few 100 more gone. Someone will take there place and space,but the world goes on without skipping a beat. Ouch…… some may think but I find accepting those thoughts to be very freeing .
Well. Its an interesting way to express how things are a bit fucked up in the world.
Ahh, love. If only we DIDN’T learn about it and just let it happen. We have more education on what love SHOULD BE than we do on subjects that interest us. We are subjected to so much bias of how a marriage SHOULD BE, and yet you want to learn about sub atomic particles? Or ecosystems? Or any interesting amazing natural process that happens in our universe? Oh. Sorry, you’ll have to pay quite a bit to access that.
But want to learn how the ‘perfect’ marriage is? Watch any and every TV show in the history of TV. Don’t worry, you’ll learn how to be like them.
I always laugh when a magazine aimed toward women(cosmo, Life, US, all that shit) comes across my way. The front page is bombarded with phrases like, “Do this to make your man crazy for you” or “10 ways to find true love” or “how to keep your man happy”… like the key to happiness lies in a shitty magazine. We try to make how-to guide to love, like there is a way to have rules and guidelines to it. This probably plays a part in why our views on love are so fucked up. How are we suppose to fall in love and stay in love when there is apparently guideline books being handed out to the masses? And then we are shocked when we set our heights to high and never really obtain this so called “love” we set out to seek.
I think that is the whole point of “enlightenment” right? that there is no fucking map, no destination, just a road always going past the horizon with an invisible brick wall in your way at some point, with a nagging bitch in the passenger seat. Alot of people want to “get there” so they can get away from the annoying bitch, but it’s the whole thing my friend. My philosophy is to drive fast and high and hopefully shut that bitch up. Most people don’t realize they are in a car though and don’t think to turn the wheel, so they just zone out till the end.
nice post, i must say… i’m driven by a variable x, but i can solve my equation for x by transposing it. when i do my x is simply my life philosophy. its my purpose from the moment of my conception i was “destined” to trod this path. i may be a bit schizophrenic which is the cause of my delusions but everybody is delusional (unless you have risen to the prestige of the author).