<div>I need to get all of these thoughts out of my head and out of my body. There’s a voice inside that screams and it is so fucking gripping that I can’t tear myself away. It’s like watching a train wreck in slow motion, but it just doesn’t end – it starts all over again.</div><div>
</div><div>Again. </div><div>And again.
</div><div>– Breathe –
</div><div>What the hell is wrong with me? Why can’t I just have a nice day? Why can’t I just be a nice person? </div><div>
</div><div>I can’t keep control of everything around me, and I’d be crushed if I tried – there’s just too much going on. Everything I do in response gets turned upside down. Good is twisted into bad and vice versa. It’s a topsy-turvy world that’s judged by billions of people who have an entire array of thoughts and emotions that all conflict with each other. I’m one of many. I’ve lost all direction and I don’t know what’s right anymore. </div><div>
</div><div>AM I GOING FUCKING CRAZY? </div><div>No, I just can’t please everyone. There will always be blame, anger and violence.</div><div>
</div><div>I really need to trust my own decisions. </div><div>
</div><div>No one is always right, though, and that’s especially important to remember for one self. I forgive myself for making mistakes and I do my best to learn from those mistakes. The same goes in regards to other people. It’s not always easy.</div><div>
</div><div>I’m tumbling through the ethos, riding echoes of the past. These echoes will continue throughout the ages. They will consume me and they will set me free. </div><div>
You can’t hide from your needs. If you don’t go by the pull of your heart then you will disintegrate. It’s hard to sit with the process of everything but everyone has to endure, we all feel the same things just not at the and time. There is likemindedness and peace to be found.