… the Soul ascending from the material world, never to be incarnated again — that is what I personally believe and is in no way a “truth”. Nothing of what I say is the truth.
I only bring this to light because our world is in danger. You all know what I’m talking about when I say this. The majority of people live in poverty, and people in the first world are largely ignorant to facts, but most frightening of all is the apparent desensitization that permeates the air of the first world countries.
Atheism used to be tied into my identity. It wasn’t until I grew older and experienced traumas that I realized a lot of what we experience, negative or positive, we attract through attitude and good karma. If one is to lie and cheat and get away with it, sooner or later he or she will come to face circumstances that upset their psyche — and only if they look within for healing will they realize what most bothers them is trivial in the grand scheme of things.
The illogical becomes logical once I embraced my spiritual nature. The more questions were asked, the more it made sense, but at the same time… it’ll most likely never make sense, for most of us at least.
I can’t seem to live life without a veil of seriousness, and I wonder if this is a good thing… because although it feels most comfortable, I wouldn’t want to live in an illusion. I recognize that there’s more to life than money and status… so what I most seek is God, but… I can’t seem to shake off this gnostic philosophy to life that has resonated with me for some time. I seek to perfect myself the best I can so that I can one day be free of any psychic pain in me, and so my goal is to seek a higher knowledge, something that will make me feel how the universe works and the way it interacts with me on a personal level.
My soul seeks to be united with an infinite love, and the idea of coming back into this world is a bit scary.
I’m writing this because I’m curious if there are others who feel, or believe in similar things, and if anyone has enlightening input I’d love to hear it.
You can live life with seriousness if that is what pleases you or live in an illusion, honestly it doesn’t matter. Live the way you believe fits into your reality, the life you’re living is exactly that, yours. You might as well make it a pleasurable experience and live the way that makes you happy and free. I went through a spiritual awakening myself and I felt as if I was at oneness with god, almost as if I had embodied god in the flesh, and all I can say was that it was pure and utter love, and peace beyond recognition. I was exposed to all this information, the divine connection I had was so intense. I kind of went into a funk once I started trying to figure out how on earth I would be able to blend this beautiful spiritual life and apply it to this harsh reality we live in, I honestly couldn’t figure it out because so many people around my way are how can I say this nicely..spiritually dead ..and would look at me like i’m crazy if I said, hey guys guess what ! I found god and guess what god was/is within me and all of us, and he/it is at the core of our very beings, and our core/origin/soul is just unimaginable unconditional love. And you’re absolutely right coming back from that experience was completely scary. I went into a little depression trying to figure out how to go back to that place but then it came to me; Stop judging the world and the people and it’s state of being, it’s not their fault they’re still asleep and if people would just sit for a moment without distractions in solitude and meditate or just sit quietly and hear their own voice and the voice of their higher self, their souls they would be able to awaken and see that much of their suffering and pain is due to lack of a connection with god, which is the lack of connection with their true selves. So I feel it’s up to the awakened souls who are now vibrating at a much higher frequency to take it upon themselves and make an impact in the world, doesn’t matter how small it is, could be as simple as a smile, but its up to us to get others to feel the light of god. And to experience the oneness,
@I_AM, I have listened to him. One of my favorites actually. I’ll definitely give him a listen before I go to work today, though. His way of looking at things is really interesting cos it goes so deep!
One thing I picked up from him that I’ve slowly but more readily have begun to do, is practicing being “aware” in order to clear the mind and be more zen – like. If I’m walking somewhere, or doing ANYTHING and I’m thinking, all of a sudden I’ll stop and say to myself: “I’m walking”, or, “I’m picking up a piece of paper” and oddly enough I find it to be so relaxing afterward cos within that short period I feel no worries.
@ Stephanie, I analyze the world and people’s state of being as a form of ego gratification, me thinks. When I was in the earlier stages of my spiritual awakening, I wasn’t aware how difficult it’d be to keep the reigns on my ego…
I think it’s something we all deal with on different levels, though. And I totally know that feeling of: “hey guys, I know something really REALLY weird but amazing” but opening your mouth would just make you look crazy and they’d miss the message lol. Sucks but oh well, one could look at it as a test of humility also, so that’s the bright side of it to me.
As for a smile… funny you say that, cos when I woke up and read your response, before I responded I went to the grocery store. On my way there I was in deep thought but in a happy mood, and this old homeless guy goes: “chillin’?” and then smiles really happily lol.
Little things like that reinforce my faith. Thank you for the thought-provoking response by the way : )
I feel like I was connected with this same feeling you are seeking last year, and recently it feels like it has been hiding from me , almost as if i’m not good enough to receive this universal love and understanding at this time.. Maybe I have messed up my karma or have just strayed away from my higher connection. I’m not sure. But I really miss feeling this connection. I hope you find it as well and feed it as much as possible I guess. It sucks to have something and then when it’s gone it’s like a part of you is gone. Maybe this is the universe getting back at me for leaving my ex boyfriends. Ha
@StarryEyed, My personal awakening couldn’t have been done without the heartache I went through last year. I fell in what I thought was love with a woman who was older than me, and possessed traits I admired — I was star struck and it made me foolishly believe we could be together when we lived states apart and she only visited once a year… not to mention, our professional lives were opposed to one another, BUT the karmic feel (which she brought up in the first place) and the emotional aspect of what went into the affair was pretty intense – the strongest feelings that’ve come out of me, and I can be pretty cold in relationships… and once shit hit the fan and we separated forever I was left feeling exposed and pretty disillusioned.
I was forced to cope the only way I could, and that was through analyzing emotions and going really deep into my psyche via meditation and drugs… I told myself I never want to get hurt like that again so I need to stop being so naive — it was like the Universe gave me a really beautiful gift with the hard lesson of me needing to mentally grow up…
… ANYWAYS, I feel you’re on to something when you say it’s the universe getting back at you for misconducts in relationships, cos I think that’s the case for me and everyone else… only difference is some people, a very few, are actually aware they’re being punished, BUT ONLY TO LEARN and become a better person, though you can only gain access to this when you open your eyes to the reality of yourself and the world.. and unfortunately most of us fall into depression after some time, cos… it’s hard to deal with reality dude. I won’t lie, at times I still sometimes feel like giving up but that’s normal, and so long as one’s emotions are recognized and felt without fear then at least you’re still on the path to whatever goal you’re reaching for. Don’t worry about how you currently feel, cos remember this: Out of chaos comes order — if you’re mind is frail and confused, all it means is you’re actually closer to realizing something really important about yourself… it’s a matter of sorting and being open to change and not having fear — don’t lose faith. You’ll find it again one day… be it in a person or something you give to the world, it’ll come for us all when we’re ready.