Hi guys. It’s been more than two years since I last posted anything on this site. But I still read a lot of stuff here.
I just wanted to share this weird feeling I’ve been in since I left a museum last weekend.
Seeing how we are all one existence bound by our very existence, I can’t seem to delineate things anymore. Like, everything is part of this giant blob. I could describe it as a muck, actually. I don’t know why my “everything is one” perspective went all pessimistic.
From that time on, I started thinking about the sheer amount of people on earth, how we try to be unique and all that. In the end, we’re just part of this big meat pie. Weird.
I was wondering if any of you guys feel the same?
“Seeing how we are all one existence bound by our very existence, I can’t seem to delineate things anymore. Like, everything is part of this giant blob. I could describe it as a muck, actually. I don’t know why my “everything is one” perspective went all pessimistic.”
Not only does that paragraph make very little sense.. you seem to misunderstand the whole idea about “everything is one.” We are not one. You and me are separate.
That is the whole point of this universe, it is a universe of relativity. That is the reason we can even see anything or experience anything… if we were perfectly one, in some state of absolution, there would be no “other” things no “other” colors. The reason we see the color “red” is because there are colors that are “not red.” Through contrast things become defined.
If we were truly one we would be in a state of absolution, where there are no-things, and so we cannot experience anything because there is nothing to experience. I think the point is to reach a state where we can live and think as one while still being relative and separate (stemming from the belief that everything started from a void, an absolution, from nothing/no-thing).
The point of this physical reality is so that Consciousness itself can experience itself in every possible expression it can. Hence we are all separate parts of the same collective. We are seperate only enough to know that we are not. That is the equilibrium of harmony.
The problem we humans have, is that we have an Ego each. Which is a natural necessity. As it is what helps our primitive mind comprehend this paradigm of existence without completely going insane. The Ego in this sense is like a tutor to our inner ape, as it attempts to learn beyond its understanding.
The problem is that the Ego can fuse with the primitive mind and hijack our individual consciousness. When this happens it creates a “mind junkie” that fiends for insatiable validation of self. But when that fiend crashes into the cold hard reality that we are all apart of a singular collective, it goes into a kind of relapse. And gets very cynical and pessimistic, pouty even. Because it can’t be given the satisfaction that it is an absolute individual.
Perhaps this is something close to what you are experiencing. Though clearly not in such a consuming way. Maybe try to shift your perspective back on your own sense of self a little more. Do things that make you enjoy your sense of individuality. Just don’t go overboard with it. Think of things you used to enjoy for no other reason than it just made you feel good about being you.
“The point of this physical reality is so that Consciousness itself can experience itself in every possible expression it can.”
On point, that is all that needs to be said. We are “one” and we are also not at all. It’s only a contradiction when a person fails to understand both sides, both extremes.