Life can be harsh sometimes. But once you crawl through the mud and get to the other side it can be rewarding, sometimes life-changing!
What is that ONE spark of energy within you that fires you up to KEEP GOING?
In my darkest moments in life I would say that the one thing that keeps me going is the faith that things can always be better, that there is always room for improvement, to learn and develop more. That no matter how bad a certain situation in my life is, I can always find some light somewhere. That, as far as I know, I only have one chance for this precious human life and that my time will come at some point anyway, so why try speeding it up.
Improvement. Learning. Moderation. Balance. Self-discipline. Realizing that life is struggle, and nothing comes easy. Striving to become less self-centered and hedonistic, making sacrifices and tough choices when I have to . Not allowing criticisms and other’s perception to affect my well-being and discovery of the truth . Also, placing morality and ethics, doing the right thing, over standard definitions of success.
I’ve been miserable most of my life, and the main thing that motivates me to rise above it is the sheer RAGE it stirs in me.
They say life is a cruel, unfair bitch. Some of us get dealt a really shitty hand to play. To me, this is enraging. I’ve suffered too much, and I won’t just take it.
It’s driven me to push against the pain. For several years. I’m still quite miserable, and occasionally struggling for my sanity, but I’m getting somewhere. Making progress. I haven’t nearly recovered yet, but things are looking brighter. I’ve achieved some things I can feel somewhat proud of, and there are some people out there who think pretty highly of me. I’m nothing compared to what I should have been, and what I am becoming, but I’m already having an impact. It fills me with hope and confidence. If this is me now, and I’m just getting started, it’s gonna be great further along.
When I was a kid, I decided that I would not let my issues define my life. I made it my goal that one day, the true story of my life would not bring anyone feelings of pity, fear or disgust, but of inspiration and GLORY.
The more the world tries to hold me down, the stronger and wiser I become. When it throws more bullshit my way, I just laugh manically and take another step forward.