What is the greatest impact HighExistence has had on your life?

 Jordan Bates (@bashfulkoala)5 years, 11 months ago

In his farewell note, Jordan Lejuwaan (HE creator) said the following of how HighExistence has impacted his life:

“People are constantly writing to our team about how HighExistence has impacted their life, and I just realized I’ve never written about how it’s impacted mine…

Every single best friend, lover, and business partner whom I have met in the past 7 years has been through this website. That is not an exaggeration. I have met the most AMAZING people because of HighExistence. People that have taught me, changed me, loved me, challenged me, and everything in between.”

As a gift to Jordan, I’m wondering if we can start an epic thread explaining the *greatest* impacts that HighExistence has had on our lives. I’ll start:

For me, HighExistence was one of the first blogs I discovered that truly pushed my thinking and challenged me to consider alternative lifestyles. It was one in a series of discoveries that gave me the courage to pursue an unconventional path in life. It inspired me to want to make a living doing something I truly loved, rather than simply settling for a job I didn’t really care about.

But the greatest impact HighExistence has had on me has surely happened in the last 6 months or so since I joined the team and began working with Jordan, Martijn, and Jon. Working together to revitalize the HighExistence community and to share thought-provoking, educational ideas with millions of people has been an experience I will never forget. I’ve learned so much from these guys and have grown as a writer, thinker, entrepreneur, and human being. Above all, the relationships I’ve formed with the team and with other folks on HE are invaluable. I have found real, beautiful friendships with some of the most interesting and impressive humans I have ever had the privilege to meet. Thank you, HighExistence, for expanding my circle of friendship and for expanding my sense of what is possible. 

October 23, 2015 at 12:00 am
Ryan (16) (@ryanoneill) 5 years, 11 months ago ago

I remember when I was first introduced to this site, I believe it was through StumbleUpon, and it was right around the time I began to discover some deeper truths about myself and the world I live in. During that time, there was a lot of angst, anxiety, and fear within me as I would look out into the world not with a loving-optimism, but with a persistent pessimism that severed any connection I could have to feeling integrated or belonging to this world. It’s strange I suppose, but this website sort of became the “train station” for me to venture out beyond my comfort zone, try new modalities within my lie (meditation, psychedelic culture, etc), and I would always come back to this website often multiple times a day. It was like another supplement that I would drink in with my morning coffee, to get a ‘shot of awe’ or a refreshed way of approaching the day. Since then, I’ve changed who I am, and sincerely became a better person with a better outlook on life and everything I do. This website is truly a gem of the interwebz :p and no matter what happens, the effect it has had is pervasive and transformative, and I will continue to clue in everyone I can to this community. Thank you Jordan for everything you’ve done here. (And if our paths ever cross or you’re in NorCal, i’d seriously be down to catch a beer or something!) Keep it breezin’. 

JonH (1,139)C (@IJesusChrist) 5 years, 11 months ago ago

“train station”

I love that.

krkrich (148) (@krkrich) 5 years, 11 months ago ago

I first came across High Existence at a time in my life where I felt pretty alone. There was nobody around me who I could relate to or who could help me understand the experience that I had been going through, which was a shift in my consciousness or an awakening or whatever you choose to call it.

I’ll never forget the article that brought me here. Someone on my twitter feed had posted an article about this guy on a train ride who was having a conversation with God. It was so interesting that I had to see what else was on this site and the rest is history. Through this site, I came across other people asking the same questions that I had and discussing the same things that I thought about and it gave me this sense of not being so alone. High Existence helped bring a lot of new ideas and perspectives into my life and provided a ton of great resources to me, something that no other site has ever done for me before. I am forever greatful and thankful for HE. 

JonH (1,139)C (@IJesusChrist) 5 years, 11 months ago ago

That was a great article, I remember it as well! We’re all on a path to awakening, some people try to cover it up, and others reach out and try to grasp it, to understand this ‘feeling’ of new understanding – of finally seeing.

Ben (231)M (@benjamin) 5 years, 11 months ago ago

For me it gave a lot of validation and encouragement to keep learning about the things I was interested in.  Once I got to college I had a much better community which kept me passionate about spirituality, philosophy, wellness, etc.  But in high school highexistence was essential for helping me realize that others out there share the same interests.  I grew up in a small town in New Hampshire (a state in US), and there was no one I knew that was interested in all these deep & substantial topics talked about on this website.  So HE, thanks for helping me feel good about myself & my interests in a time when I was less secure about myself :)

Ben @ http://www.syntropulse.com

flotro (1) (@flotro) 5 years, 10 months ago ago

This site is so inspiring because everyone is here because they want to learn for fun, and join this amazing network of learners. Each piece is thoughtful, captivating, and enlightening. It is the place where I go when I just want to relax and learn, not because I have to, but just because. 

Omar (1) (@oke565) 5 years, 10 months ago ago

What HE has done for me is shown me I’m not alone.

Anjelica (101) (@Anjelica) 5 years, 10 months ago ago

I think there is a space between taking your power back from the “matrix” and when you decide what to do with that power.. HE facilitated a lot of that process for me through connecting me with people in a similar stage of development. It’s very interesting to gather a bunch of people who are trying to find the roots of reality and compiling all the perspectives. 

stonedragon (143) (@stonedragon21) 5 years, 10 months ago ago

HE pulled me thru a big depression several winters ago/. all the support and love i got from various people helped me to refind my old self back . full of inspiration and art and LIFE…

it was great to invite some of these HE people to my farm this summer and we enjoyed together and some interesting connections were made.. in person. four people who had been online, on HE for years interacting, growing , supporting each other in a cyber way…  each from our own country,, finally joining up in the summer sun! 

HE has had a great impact on my life, and it is such a blessing that people with like minds are inquisitive and compassionate and able to reach out joyfully , questioning with out feeling vulnerable or afraid. 

Thanks to Martijn, Jordan and the others… THanks to all of US HETHENS!!!

love and light from the old  mother dragon.

Mukul Deka (4) (@Muriz-Deka) 5 years, 10 months ago ago

Today is my first day on HE so i guess, I don’t qualify to answer this question, but I would like to say I am very hopeful about this website and I don’t usually write but thats one habit I am determined to develop (as I have a lot in my mind but not very good at expressing it.) So yeah thats one take away from this website and I hope I find some amazing people here.

MadAdam (1) (@Kilroy2326) 4 years, 8 months ago ago

I know this is a bit late but i wanted to share.

This site for me has been a connection to this world that only the understanding of like minds can bring. I have been lost for a long time. Lost in my mind, my thoughts. It’s as if brooding became my default existence. Ifelt Isolated, alone, and misunderstood. And the more these thoughts ran they deeper down the rabbit hole i went. Then one day i was stumbling (yea thats how i found you guys lol) and i came across a quote from a philosopher that i had never read before. It was just what i needed at just the right time in my life. After that i started reading a ton of articles. And just to read the things that you were sharing. The perspectives you were spreading. You made me realize i was Waking up without knowing it. The feeling of having that put into words, and to know that i am not alone on this journey… honestly changed my life. And i am damn proud to be the man i am sitting here typing these words. So from the bottom of my heart thank you. You saved this soul.

Daan (0) (@Daan-Banaan) 4 years, 7 months ago ago


High Existence changed EVERYTHING. It was the place where I first read about Ayahuasca and Iboga which led to having a private Iboga ceremony on my 31st bday with a shaman in my own house and participating in my first Ayahausca ceremony months later. The Iboga didn’t do much for me, but Mama Ayahuasca gave me a full blown spiritual awakening. 

I read about Burning Man on HE for the first time and visited it years later, a month after my awakening. Vipassana, 50 Life Secrets & Tips, hung that on my bathroom door and looked at it for months, the documentaries that are recommended here, the work at Valhalla. All have been huge life changing insights that resulted in living a life of bliss and gratitude at the moment. I’m probably forgetting tons of other things. 

Summarized. I would not feel the way I feel right now, full of love, full of light, without High Existence

​Much love to all of you, Daan

Ali (0) (@Ali-Ebaid) 4 years, 7 months ago ago


Ali (0) (@Ali-Ebaid) 4 years, 7 months ago ago


jamst215 (6) (@jamst215) 4 years, 6 months ago ago

I’ve been lurking around on this site for almost 4 years now and it has probably had the largest effect on ne then any other site I’ve visited. Before this site I suffered from depression and had felt trapped on this set life of working for no meaning and taking the safe path because risk and suffering are to be always avoided. This site not only showed that my life could be the contrary but also helped me to find the tools you overcome my depression and go for my dreams of producing in TV and film. The only thing I still seem to struggle with is finding people who are interested with the subjects Hugh existence covers such as introspection and meditation.

Blake (2) (@bpsubie) 4 years, 6 months ago ago

I can’t say exactly what has changed because of this site, but I can say that I would not be where I am and who I am if it was not for this site. 

I suffered a traumatic brain injury and coma 6 years ago which kind of acted as a reset button and sent me searching for different ways of life. I then proceeded to read all of HE and got the books from: 7 Books That Will Violently Shift Your Perspectives. This was, as i feel, my awakening. I questioned the norm, meditated, thought differently, became happier, and in general, became a better human, caring about things that actually matter. I became a highly functioning professional in the fitness industry, started microdosing LSD, and then decided to quit, sell everything and travel for two years, creating a website, taking a permaculture course, a shamanistic retreat with ayahuasca and san pedro.. and much more. 

Almost every big, life changing event or decision I have made in recent life, can be traced back to something from this website. HE put me at the forefront of many things that are seing more light now (Wim Hoff, Microdosing, etc)

A HUGE thank you for everything. 

Ryan (16) (@ryanoneill) 4 years, 6 months ago ago

I have wanted to say this for a long time. I came across HighExistence in my freshman year of college through StumbleUpon, and this may be one of the most important websites I have ever stumbledupon and had the fortune to continue checking this website. Now, nearly 5 years later, I look back and realize that I was never very active on this site, or with this community, but it was one of the few “boundary dissolvers” that have since influenced the way I think and see the world. Every article on this sight speaks towards the higher nature of ourselves, re-envisions a better world both within and without us, and emphasizes the values of personal soveriegnty over consciousness, commUnity, activism, mind-bending psychology and perspectives, while also balancing all that with some practicality and every-so-often highlighting the demons we face on the spiritual path. 

Everyone that uses this website is an amazing human being, and I can’t think of anything more important than to communicate the values and ideas from each one of you. From the “spiritual hippie” meme to deep discussions on the nature of consciousness or inner anxiety… this website is a proverbial tropical island paradise in the internet. I am so grateful to have found this place. I love you all. 

Drshahid (0) (@Drshahid-Ali) 4 years, 4 months ago ago

as Judy answered I’m impressed that people can get paid $9705 in one month on the internet 

. over here………….  http://www.smart-job5.com

Jocelyn (0) (@Jocelyn-Thate) 4 years, 4 months ago ago

I somehow have just managed to stumble across this website through reading an article on facebook a friend shared. My, are the synchronocities ever alighning for me today! I read the article of how creativity is sparked by turmoil and pain in our lives, how we must embrace it rather then run from it. For it is during this time that (using reference)  a forest is intentionally set on fire to help the ecosystem. Though yes, it does hurt and yes some things are lost- the outcome is far more greater then the pain of the initial burn/ battle… This is me right now, in my life story. Ironically, i discovered after my house was robbed, my husband of barely a year (was with him for 7 years) started to beat me- after he broke my nose, i left him. He was diagnosed with cancer shortly after and died within 4 months, he and his family cleaned out our house druing his last month alive, had sold marijuana and left me nothing.. Oh and gave away our 3 cats and put my 12 year old chihuahua, Rico, down while pitching against my once family and friends that  I was abusing perscription, recreational- whatever drugs and unfit to raise my son- I had a “spiritual awakening.” Despite all this turmoil, pain and POVERTY- i actually have never been more happy in my entire life. I wrote a poem called “my man made fire” and how “I know I must step into the fire until it incinerates me to the core.. Only then will i be reborn, listen to the phoenix as it calls out that this time is near…..” I never wrote prior. Never painted, did drawings- nothing. Now, i have funky greenish blue hair andi absolutely love to write, paint,draw- you coul dsay im a different person…! But im still in that fire.. but now, with this confirmation, it makes sense 

Martijn Schirp (112,780)A (@martijn) 5 years, 11 months ago ago

Thank you for both your e-mail and this message, it really warms my heart reading it. See you at BM next year ;)?

Martijn Schirp (112,780)A (@martijn) 5 years, 11 months ago ago

50 life secrets and tips? 

I didn’t get polyphasic sleep to work either. Jordan is a superhuman.
1) This is great advise, I realised it also around the time I started reading HE.
2) Never knew you had psychosis, damn. How is it now? Are you on meds, if I may ask? (feel free to pm me rather than post here.)
<3 <3 <3
Happy to have you still around man!
JonH (1,139)C (@IJesusChrist) 5 years, 11 months ago ago

I’m not diagnosed, no medications – its easily managed. I just need to take care of myself. Sleeping well, not going crazy with alcohol and drug consumption, eating well and exercising. All the basic stuff.

I get delusions from time to time – that people are evil, that I’m being ‘watched’, the popular psychotic/paranoid delusions. They don’t effect me as much as they used to, as I am able to understand they are just delusions. But my god is it one hell of an interesting subject! 

Paolo Bagarone (1) (@paolobaggins) 5 years, 11 months ago ago

Haha burning man here we come, I will legit start saving up if this is a thing :) 

Melissa (5) (@m3lissarichardson) 5 years, 11 months ago ago

Well, considering it would be the first year I think its going to be best to start small depending on how many people want to be apart of it. We will definitely need a legit shade structure first and foremost. And a spreadsheet of all the different things that different people will be accountable for as far and food and supplies. A lot of camps have small groups plan a dinner for each night of the week, and everyone does their own thing for food during the day.. As far as activities go, some ideas i’m interested in are late night toasties, scavenger hunts, bingo with a twist, flash mob/parade, tea garden, motivational discussions, face painting, bike repair, polaroid photography… theres so many! But I want to incorporate highexistence and what it stands for into the theme… hmmmmmm

Andrew Pegram (0) (@Andrew-Pegram) 4 years, 4 months ago ago

Did this event ever happen? Seeing this for the first time and would really be interested in a HE Burning Man meetup. Honestly, I’m pretty new to the HE community. I’ve read articles here and there for a few years, maybe, but haven’t been really involved. But I’m thinking now that it seems like a great community to get to know. This discussion helped me realize that. 

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