What Stole Your "Innocence" When A Child?

Anonymous (@) 9 years, 4 months ago

I’ll begin: at the age of 11, while riding in the family car one day, I realized my mortality. That one day I would die. Before that, I just assumed that some people had bad luck and died from accidents and sickness. Too bad for them. With the realization pretty much came the end of my childhood. I went from the carefree existence of just being in the moment, to the birth of introspection, thought and self-reflection. Sucked. Come to think of it, STILL sucks!

January 23, 2013 at 5:11 am
Marie (2,051) (@ARCANUS) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

This sounds pretty trivial, but for me it was getting my period at age 11. I felt like a captive to adulthood, like I could never be totally careless anymore. Also when my cousin and her family moved from her old place without telling me. I spent the best summers of my life there. Suddenly that was gone. I became a melancholy soul. I haven’t been good at letting go and living in the moment, I’ve been trying to harvest memories rather than live them.

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molniser (7) (@molniser) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

College.

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Anonymous (2,654) (@) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

Nothing stole my innocence. When I was riding that bike down the electric post to get a glass stuck in my nose, I didn’t care. Also, I didn’t care when a friend of mine found money on the street and wanted to keep it. I was interested in playing and decided to keep my interest until I realized that when you grow older, girls use that playing interest in order to fulfill their romantic delusions. I still haven’t changed though, since I see how everyone grows up. :) Innocence? I never got myself the chance to experience innocence to even lose it, because innocence doesn’t exist, it’s something desperate people talk about when they can’t reach what they think they desire.

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Alex (345) (@staylucky) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

Some family friends bought me an Offspring cd when I was 10. It was all downhill from there haha

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Anonymous (177) (@) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

@ARCANUS Thank-you for your honesty and openness. Blessings on our journey towards living in the moment(which we are doing despite ourselves) :0)
@molniser Thank-you for responding, but am very curious as to impact of college if you wish to expound?
@beyond Thank-you for your reply. “Innocence”, I wasn’t sure is the proper word – maybe “carefree” would be better? But, thanx.
@staylucky Ah! AWESOME! I can actually identify with that :0)

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Dan (890) (@danfontaine) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

Probably when I wasn’t accepted by my peers when I switched schools in 3rd grade

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Sugar Magnolia (375) (@melissaurban1991) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

my parents throwing insane crack-fueled parties for the first 8 years of my life complete with scandinavian strippers in bikinis.

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Sugar Magnolia (375) (@melissaurban1991) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

i guess i was never innocent

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Sugar Magnolia (375) (@melissaurban1991) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

books got me through that but then i was too smart to be cool when it came time for elementary school. so i spent the last 20 years of my life dumbing myself down to fit in which i finally realized is not Who I Am.

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Anonymous (177) (@) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

@donfontaine Thanx for replying – do you remember any feelings from that experience and does it in anyway affect you today?
@melissaurban1991 Thanx for replying – what was up with “dumbing yourself down to fit in”?

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Brianna (29) (@briannabbycks) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

The day my mother became really upset with me and told me I was the evidence of a rape case.

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Anonymous (177) (@) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

@briannabbycks, that seems sorta cruel – sorry – but no matter how you got here, GLAD you did! Peace, Love & Light ~ ricky

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Alex (345) (@staylucky) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

@danfontaine, That’s a sucky feeling, dude. I moved school and countries when I was 13 from a good bunch of friends where we let anyone into our circle to a school and environment where everybody already had “their” groups. It was a tough transition and a big slap in the face.

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Sugar Magnolia (375) (@melissaurban1991) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

@rickyferdon as you can tell, my parents were not the parents of the century lol. they told me “just be like everyone else”. by age 11/12 i was asking life questions that they had never even thought of and they didn’t know what to do with me. they told me i was “special” now i know that i am very very VERY special! but growing up i thought it was a bad thing and i was scared to death to stand out.i don’t blame my parents or regret any of it though, that was my path and i wouldn’t be able to experience the light so fully as i do now without having experienced so much dark!!!

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Almeida (304) (@xetado) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

Just as @beyond said, I wasn’t innocent and can’t lose something I never had..

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Nisska (14) (@nisrom) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

I think you lose innocence/carefree-ness/illusions in several steps throughout life, but the earliest I can remember is when I was 5 and my parents had a messy divorce, filled with lots of blame and yelling. I realized life does not always end up how it’s ‘supposed’ to be….that people have issues and weaknesses, and not everyone can be happy. It was pretty upsetting.

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giantmind (1) (@alisa1st) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

I was never innocent. Carefree? Still am.

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Kristian Jaded (75) (@mentalkink) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

At first I was sure it was the parties my separated father and mother threw individually without a care for the children in the house, my mother was always a drunken without a care, and my father a coke head, lots of inappropriate things, drugs, rude conversations and nakedness always.
But actually I didn’t understand any of it at the time, it was just a big game to me and my cousins, we didn’t actually understand what all of it was!
I lost my “innocence” when I was 12, when I was brutally raped by an older boy I though I had loved. I never knew what sex was, what drugs were or what that whole world of pain was, until he took that from me.
Sounds awful. But that’s life, and I’ve found that everyone has a different fate, whether “worse” or “better” it’s irrelevant, You learn, live and grow.

But we all grow up in someway-sometime, just gotta keep the child within :)

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Anonymous (26) (@) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

masturbation

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heal (0) (@healdotme) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

It is said that there are time when children know nothing what endanger them, etc. There is a time when they reach to understand that this person is beautiful while that is not. Well the exact age is relative.

Innocence can refer to no evil thinking like a child who know no mistakes cause they cant differenciate which is right and wrong.

The prime state of a man is when he is adult. He can understand -if he thinks.

So my innosence lost when I began to learn that something is right and the other is wrong. But I forgot when it was…

And when I was in the collge I still dont know how to treat women -still childish untill now.

( ^ – ^ )

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VernalSoul (598) (@vernalsoul) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

I was always a pretty serious and thoughtful person, and exposed to a lot of travel and culture, i don’t think i was every super “innocent,” but I did become much more aware of my mortality and the gravity of my decisions when my friend died when I was 14.

@ARCANUS, I had been raised in a Christian home, school, and church, and getting my period is what made me stop believing in a “fair” or involved god. :P

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John Spartan (6) (@johnspartan) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

yea, we’re just all animals ; ) @vernalsoul,

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AppleMiko (4) (@applemiko) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

Living with my father as a child, and my mother would tell me she’d come see me on a certain day, and I’d look out the window waiting. She’d never come. That’s when I learned to not trust people, eventually leading me to question and analyze everything people would tell me.

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Mike M (13) (@mikem) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

Well, this one time I was reading this super depressing thread about innocence being on a website called highexistence.com, and that pretty much made me realize that the world is a generally sucky place. :)

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L.T (151) (@1love) 9 years, 4 months ago ago

2 things which happened in the same week

– when i punched that fucker who thought it was funny to talk shit about my mom.

– when titanic had that nude scene

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